After so many years of in a relationship.
This relationship, is the relationship that i really wanted it to last long.
This is the relationship, that i hate to destroy,
This is the relationship that i hate to give up.
This is also the relationship, that i want to go on forever.
But, now... I am the one who want to give up.
Because, day and night i am just waiting for his text.
But, i never got what i want.
Until on my birthday, He finally gave me the best 18 present.
8 missed calls and 2 message.
I thought on this special days things will patch up.
But, i didnt know in the end, after he got what he one.
He left, without giving me another text or anything.
I numb myself by rotting at home sleeping whole day.
Just to see if he will message me, he never.
Until when i know, he deleted me from fb.
SINGLE.
in his fb, only have 3 girls.
its clear that he've moved on, without me, he is even happier.
Oh, fuck why i am thinking back of the past?
In the past, whenever i want to leave.
He will chase me back, asking me not to leave.
He has change, i know.
Change of heart, change of everything.
I know, now he doesnt feel the same way of how i feel for him.
I still love him know? I really still love him.
But, i decided to end this relationship..
Cause, i have to let him go to make him happier.
He will always have a place in my heart.
A big portion of it, cause he is irreplacable.
Although we keep quarrel, keep having fights.
but, memories between us, is not what you people know.
I know how i feel for him, i know he is going be the guy that i really love once in my life.
Others? They are just making use of me.
I know this guy, will try to make effort to give me what i want.
I really know, remember the mermaid collections i have in my room?
3/4 of it, is he gave me one.
Blame me, for not knowing how to treasure until his feeling for me fade.
I didnt really thought that, i will really choose to give up this relationship.
I deleted everything in facebook regarding him.
i need strength, i need a shoulder.
I need a sleep. A sleep which can make me erase everything that hurt me.
&& sad to say for now.
I am offically SINGLE and unavaliable.
&& i am waiting for a SONG, a song of LOVE.
&& at the same time, waiting for a miracle.
